Hey loves! Welcome back if you’ve been with me on this crazy blog journey or welcome if you’re new!
This topic has been on my heart for some time and when I listened to a podcast on how the whole concept of balance is really just make believe in a sense I knew I needed share what I had already been feeling.
*If you haven’t ever listened to her podcasts I highly suggest it!
Ruth’s Soukup’s podcast Do it scared (episode 9)*
As a stay at home working mom, there’s never a dull moment. There is always laundry that needs to be done, phone calls to make, sensory and planned crafts for Hailey, bathroom needing to be cleaned, dishes in the sink, and the list continues.
Don’t even get me started on the regular errands and trying to properly have Hailey socialized all while sharing one vehicle with my husband.
Even as I sit here writing this Hailey is refusing to take her nap and therefore I hear her destroying her room on the monitor.
So much for quiet time, right?
Like most of us nowadays I feel like there are not enough hours in the day to get everything done.
Don’t get me wrong. I am incredibly thankful for the life God has blessed me with.
This life compared to the nightmare I grew up in is a complete 180, but I am also not afraid to say I want more.
One of my favorite motivational speakers, Tony Robbins, talks about how humans feel their best selves when they are having progress.
Feeling stuck in one area of your life can lead you feeling stuck in all areas, but today I am saying no.
Today I am saying screw balance. It’s not possible and probably never will be.
I am accepting that I will probably never have a consistent meal plan or cleaning routine, but I will be content and happy cooking our dinners and keeping a clean house however the two get done.
If I am not viewed as a “Pinterest mom” I will remind myself it’s okay. I refuse to fall into this trap of unrealistic perfection that will eventually crumble.
If I don’t have all my sh*t together or be the weight I want to be than I will remind myself it’s okay, and to still be kind to myself.
If Hailey watches a little too much TV one day I won’t feel guilty, and I will just make it a point to read to hear a little more the next day.
I am determined to give myself the grace when it’s needed and also give myself a kick in the a** on the other days instead.
I’m tired of living with the stigma of coming from an abusive home and living with a mental illness somehow means I can never win.
I am done feeling the guilt and shame on the days I am depressed and don’t get much done, but I still love on my girl, and that’s what matters most.
I am choosing to embrace the chaos of life and feeling thankful for the opportunities God has given me.
Another quote I heard the other day said: “If you focus on everything then nothing is important.”
Man that brought so much reality into my life it felt like a slap in the face.
I can’t do it all. None of us can.
But I am here for a reason and purpose and to be uniquely me.
I don’t believe God makes mistakes so I am going to stop thinking of myself as a mistake.
I am saying no to the perfection to be able to focus on what’s more important, and I truly hope you will too.
You have something unique inside of you and you will never be able to share with the world your gift if you’re too busy trying to do all the things.
I challenge you today to sit and make a list of all the things you stink at that you wish you could be better at.
For example- I am so chaotically organized. I have notebooks and folders for days and I know where everything is (most of the time), but good luck having my husband try to find anything.
I wish I could be a more normal organized person but I am 26 years old. It’s probably not happening, and that’s okay.
After you write your list of what things you stink at but wish you could improve on, make a completely new list of your talents and things you thrive at.
Once you’re done compare to see and really think about what’s the bigger picture you want from your life.
What will be more beneficial to you?
Working on your strengths or trying to balance and be mediocre at everything? The choice is yours.
Is embracing the chaos something you struggle with too or are you content with the crazy of life? Like always I’d love to hear from you in the comments!